With midterms finally over, Touko is still insisting on doing the stage play. However, Yuu is still reluctant to do so and tries to stop her from doing it.
Now that midterm exams are over, Yuu’s concerns of Touko still being hung-ho in doing the play is still strong. Since the literary club is busy and nobody knows anyone who can write a script, maybe Yuu can stop worrying about it.
Of course, Yuu lying that she doesn’t know anyone when she has Koyumi’s manuscript come to bite her shortly after. Sayaka apparently knows that Yuu is lying and standing in the way of what Touko wants. Sayaka’s glare is strong showing she knows that Touko has her to look after. Aside from the fact that Sayaka might have feelings for her, she is simply saying that she knows more about Touko than Yuu. Still, I have to admit that her interaction with Yuu is kind of fierce. This does not come at a surprise given what she said to Maki a few episodes back.
With that, Sayaka before she walked away suggested Yuu to find out what happened seven-year ago for herself. When Yuu tried to find the student council records from seven years ago, she is unable to find it. She learns from her sister that the student council president from seven years ago was Touko’s older sister, Mio. Afterwards, Yuu learns from the teacher that Touko’s older sister died in a traffic accident and the stage show was called off. Because of her death, the student council ended that tradition
I can understand why Yuu is troubled by this new revelation. She knows that the true Touko is very timid. What troubles Yuu more is that Touko is trying to be someone else, namely become like her older sister who was idolized and respected by many. I can see why Yuu doesn’t want Touko do the stage play and want her to just be herself. After all, if one tries to be someone else, he or she is throwing their true identity away.
I know for a fact that this is not going to work. Touko have already made up her mind to move forward with the play. She believes that if she doesn’t, she has nothing to live for. I understand that the feeling of bereavement when Touko lost her older sister has been very hard on her. At one point in our lives, we will lose a love one that we hold close to our hearts. While her relatives told her to live on and become outstanding as her sister has a factor in this, I am not sure if her older sister would want Touko to throw away her true self to become like exactly like her.
Regardless, Yuu decides to change her mind out of fear that Touko will leave her side forever. If that happens, she fears that she will never learn how to love. This is probably why she decided to change her mind and go along with what Touko wants.
Of course, on the other side of the coin, Touko wants Yuu to maintain the status quo. She knows that if Yuu changes herself, their relationship will never be the same. In a way, Touko’s desire of Yuu not wanting her to love her back can mean one thing. She is possibly treating Yuu like a replacement for her sister. That way, she can feel safe without having to do anything special since she knows that Yuu is kind. What she doesn’t know is that Yuu wants to love her back. Someday, this will happen no matter if she wants it or not.
While we don’t know how Touko will react when this happen, we have to wait and see. Aside from that, it’s interesting to learn the reason why Touko decided to change herself since middle school and become the student council president. It’s not just to become her ideal self as we initially thought, but rather to follow in her older sister’s footsteps. ¶